Even though he’s an “internet friend”, sometimes when you are too down to be social, he’s the perfect person to talk to. You connect with him on a meaningful level, and you’ve found it easier to be yourself while talking to him than you do in most face to face social interactions. When you’re down, you find yourself using this as another reason to feel like a loser, as though you could only make friends if they didn’t have to deal with you in person, but for now you’re relieved to be around him.